Cause I gotta have FAITH!!

I was responding to a blog post from a fellow IVF patient.  She also had a failed fresh transfer on her first time.  It reminded me of late February when my hubs and I decided it was time to move forward with IVF.  We had to do a lot of soul searching before we were prepared to enter into such a "drastic" course of action.  Of course, we prayed, A LOT.  We finally felt like this was what the Lord wanted us to do. After we made the decision, I felt like if we tried IVF the result would be pregnancy.  Like, ok, we have made this HUGE decision and now we will get what we have been trying for.  Unfortunately for us, that was not the result....yet.  So now, when I pray, I only pray for what is in front of me.  I pray that on July 19th, these little eggies will stick to me and begin to grow and blossom into a healthy pregnancy with a final result of healthy babies in our arms.  I have noticed that when I get ahead of myself and say, "if this doesnt work..." it just makes me sad and worried.  If I just stay on today, and the blessings that are promised to me, I can stay positive.

Matthew 21:22 And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.”

It actually makes me tear up reading those words, because I have so much faith that they are true.  Faith is all you can hold on to in a time like this.  You try and try and try and you just have not yet received what you have prayed for. I feel so blessed to have family and friends around me that are so inspirational.  They dont let me sit for one moment and be sad, they are constantly encouraging me and telling me THIS IS HIS PLAN.  It really makes me feel so full of strength.

 

So today I will hold on to my faith, smile, and enjoy my fresh homemade tuna and wheat thins :)

 

TTFN

Taco Tuesday!

Hello world!  Its Taco Tuesday!  One of my favorite days of the week.  So yesterday I was very tired.  I ended up falling asleep at 7!  That is crazy early for me.  The hubs had to wake me up to give me my shot.  Luckily, I was not grumpy when I woke up from my early slumber.  Im just one of those people that are not a happy camper when awoken from a nice nap.  Today im feeling good.  Need to start weening myself off of caffeine again.  Gotta make my body a happy place for these eggs to implant!  And of course, no more alcohol pretty soon.  Which, since I don't drink much you would think would not be that big of a deal, but, in reality sucks!  LOL.  Im such a control freak that I get upset at the fact that I cant have the alcohol.  Its pretty silly.  But, believe me, I will do whatever is necessary to make a baby.  I want to be a Mom so bad.  And I cant wait to see my hubs become a Dad.  I think it will make him the happiest he has ever been.

Time to sign off for now.  Have a great day!

Day One

Well here goes nothing :).  My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 3 years.  In April we tried our first round of IVF.  It was unsuccessful.  The positive was we have 14 frozen eggs to continue trying with.  We just began our new protocol for a frozen embryo transfer.  Basically, we do lots of needles and pills for about a month.  Then on July 19th, God willing, we will transfer 2 embryos.  There is a lot that goes through your mind during this process.  Mostly I think God has been so great to me in my life, everyone has a struggle of some kind, and I guess this is mine.  I pray almost everyday about it, and sometimes more than once.  I have great faith that this is the Lords plan for my husband and I.  We just have to stay patient and diligent.  So if it fits your fancy, check in on this blog from time to time and see how we are doing!  Hopefully you will see great news!!  We love to hear other peoples stories and appreciate any encouragement you would like to share.  Now I'm off to have a Turkey sand which.  Nom Nom.  Happy Monday!